Let I[me]T go...

[.Icefur.]

Moonray...

The medicine cat walked stiffly, slowly out of her den. Letting her tired, damaged paws carry her, she made her way to the center of the camp, watching the moonlight spill over camp. Her eyes locked longingly on the moon, they glowed furiously, reflecting the moonlight. She looked down and sighed. She remembered her past with a shiver prickling down her spine. She had to let it go. But it gripped her mind grudgingly. Moonray squeezed her eyes shut and whimpered. She looked around, hoping the others were asleep. All she had lost... Whats wrong with me...? Make it stop... Please. She silently prayed to Starclan. She needed someone to love. Someone to hold the sadness flwing out of the gap in her empty heart that surprisingly still beats. She was so insignifigant in everyone eyes. The sacrifices... lies... betrayal... Loss... She trailed off, staring ahead blankly, eyes empty and lost.

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw rolled over she felt horrible, everything was screaming at her as she shook in her little nest quietly, she opened her deep green eyes, they darted around the den to see if anyone was awake. She let out a soft sigh seeing that no one else was awake, she rose to her shaking paws and headed out of the den, she gaved around looking for the medicine cats den she started to head there when she noticed Moonray sitting in the center of camp. She folded her heads back and headed over to her, "M-M-Moonray?" She stuttered, "M-May I h-have some t-thyme?" She asked her voice was tiny as she shook she wanted to calm herself down but found herself unable to.

[.Icefur.]

Moonray.

The she-cat was yanked vigorously out of her trance by the weakest voice. It sounded so inncocent... so... so much like her first apprentice. she noticed how distressed the apprentice looked. Moonray still refused to speak in her her unused voice. She hadn't spoken in months. Moonray nodded, tears burning her eyes at the anxious voice. Her tail rested on Hollypaw's shoulder, guiding her into her den. The warm, comforting atmosphere overtook Moonray as she tried to pass the calm feeling onto Hollypaw. Only her... I will only speak to her... She thought. Um... Um... C-could you tell me how you are feeling? What's wrong? She wanted to make sure if Hollypaw didn't need anything more than the tyhme. But she wanted so much for the young female to feel better. She padded silently over to her stock of tyhme, still waiting for Hollypaw's request.

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw was still shaking even after Moonray had put her tail on her shoulder and guided her into the den, her minds raced thinking of the worst possible thing that could happen to her, she pushed the thoughts back as she looked up at Moonray calming only slightly, she still felt sick and panicked but was feeling only a bit better. "I f-f-feel awful, my s-stomach hurts, m-my head hurts, its h-hard t-to breathe, and I-I-I feel so v-very s-sick" Hollypaw stammered her muscles tensed as she tried to explain how she felt, her head folded back and she lowed to the ground quietly her body racked with her shaking. Hollypaw hated when she felt like this, it happened a couple of times before in camp, and many times before she even came. Hollypaw glanced up at Moonray, her wide, fearful green eyes pleaded for relief.

[.Icefur.]

Moonray.

She placed a paw quickly on the young cat's shoulder, pushing the tyhme to her. She sped back to her stock and recited those pitiful words in her head. Chervil for a bellyache, Coltfoot for her breathing, and poppy seads for her pain. She questioned the poppy seeds for a moment, thinking about her headache but decided it was better than nothing. Only if my mentor had never died... She forced tears back and walked back over to the kit, here, chew on the roots of the Chervil for your stomache ache. Then chew the coltsfoot to a pulp for your shortened breath. and just chew on some poppy seeds and see if it helps the headache. Moonray felt horribly bad, laying down my the shivering kit and resting her tail once again on her shoulder.

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw glanced up with her green eyes as Moonray placed a paw on her shoulder, she looked down at the thyme and nodded gratefully, she took some quietly and waited for Moonray. She watched with curious eyes as Moonray gather other herbs she didn't know what many of them were, her eyes followed Moonray's movements. When she came back listing off the herbs that will help her, she looked up at Moonray again as she layed down, she had felt a bit better from the thyme and did as she was told, chewed on the Chervil, then Coltsfoot, and then finally Poppy seeds, she began to feel sleeply but smiled slightly, "T-Thank you" She said as she stopped shaking a bit.

[.Icefur.]

Moonray.

She smiled warmly, looking down on Hollypaw. She wished for a daughter... an apprentice... something to love. I'll just make this last. She though, tapping the end of her tail on the young she-cat. Moonray looked up at the sky, seeing the moon glint off her pelt. She stared at the beauty of the indigo sky and big moon that seemed to be cloaked all around with stars. One of the best moments in her life is this. She actually felt happy.

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw smiled and yawned slightly, she felt much better her muscles relaxed, and her eye lids became heavy, she looked up at Moonray with her green eyes, she then looked up at the sky and smiled softly, it brightened her day and nigth just to see the moon like that, it reminded her of her mother, and how her pelt was just as pale white. Hollypaw missed her mother, not so much her teasing brother's and sisters but she did miss her mother who was always there for her, she looked back at Moonray and was happy to at least have someone to help her out, "Thank you a-again Moonray" She said quietly.

[.Icefur.]

moonray.

Moonray looked knowingly down at Hollypaw with wisdom. She smiled softly again and nudged Hollypaw to her feet. Why don't you get your sleep so you can see what you might be up to tomarrow. The female forced a quivering smile. She didn't want to be alone but she knew that others cats needed sleep unlike her.

OOC - Sorry. I bareley have any Muse ):

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw looked up at Moonray and nodded, "I w-will" She said, she yawned a bit and her eyes became more heavy as she got up, her whiskers drooped, and her ear's folded back, her tail dragged on the ground as she started to padded away slowly, "G-G-Goodnight M-Moonray" She said, her voice was more calm now then it had been, she was also looking alot better, she yawned once more and took off to the apprentices den.

[.Icefur.]

Moonray.

She bowed her head to Hollypaw's back as she headed to her den. Moonray sat still in her den. She let the wind blow her fur, and leave a chilled feel over her. She broke down. The tears streamed from her face as she looked up at the moon. She rose to all fours and dragged off to her nest, still sobbing the kit she was when her father was brutally murdered.

[~Ravenpaw~]

Hollypaw had padded back to the apprentices den, she yawned and looked up at the moon once more with her soft green eyes, looking down she thought only of her dearest mother, she curled up and fell asleep quickly dreaming of life before the clan, dreaming of the den in the moorland, of her brothers and sisters, and of course Snow, her beautiful mother, she smiled letting her mind wander off.